Chance IV

I saw you in the hall

Surrounded by people
I wished I didn't know at all.
In a pool of silence
I lost all my pain.
I even believed I'd never get depressed again.
For six months I was yours, alone.
I wouldn't have lost you
If you had known.

I saw you in the street
Surrounded by traffic.
How I longed for the day we'd meet.
With your face in front of me
I could only cry
For all those burgundy days gone by.
I saw you every day.
You were younger than me
And you were always going the other way.

I saw you beside me
Surrounded by hate.
I'd become so blind: How could I see?
I talked to your face,
Cried for your heart.
All those days I spent tearing me apart.
There'll never be another
Just like you.
All I ever wanted was your love as a brother.

So now I'm alone
And all around me has turned to dust and stone.
If I could carry on
And meet number 4
There might be a reason to walk out the door.
But here I'll stay
For yet another day
To hope that the pain will go away.

I'll never love a woman
And I can't love a man.
I just want someone to understand.

Birmingham, early 1987